Max
This is your daddy posting just in case you ever google yourself and i want you to know i dream about you every night and i even daydream about your. Im wondering what your doing at all times. I spend most of my days with you on my mind and i bet you think about me to. I try to call sometimes but you never call back so i just have quit trying. if you ever see this email me at mysonmax@hotmail.com and i will let you know whats going on with me. Ever since me and your mother got divorced i have not been able to get back on my feet. Im so depressed that i do not have you in my life. I hope when you get old enough i can have a relationship with you and maybe we can even live in the same city. I have alot of things to tell you about why we havent been able to talk to each other. I have called on your birthdays but apparantly someone doesnt think you need me in your life and is only thinking of themself. People in the world always judge you on the thing you might have done wrong not all the good things you did. anyway i dont have the money to send your mother for child support at this time and i hate that. I did send you a card for your birthday in the year 2010 and i hope you got the 40 dollars on the visa card i got for you. You are the only reason that i even want to live. Im just hoping one day money will come to me and i can pay off a certain person and i will be able to see you. I tried several different ways to make money on the internet even to the point of almost begging. Im just in so much disarray without your .. your are my sunshine and my baby bear. I hope your allowed to have pictures of me and remember all the love i gave to you. I wear your necklace you gave me, you probably dont remember but it may be like a power ranger thing. Just so you know i have bad back problems and i cant seem to work hard enough for anyone anymore. I just want you to know i love you more than life itself and i hope you dream about me. I know we have a god and i hope you do to. We all have to answer to him and im ready to answer for my shortcomings. I hope other people in your life actually realize they will also answer for other things.. Read the ten commandments baby bear and those are the guidelines for life. Those are the ones i worry about most. I seen your picture your so handsome in your baseball uniform. Like i said maybe one day the lord will bless me with money and thats all it takes to buy people these days. Not that i want to buy people but i want to pay your mother for taking good care of you physically anyway. I just hope to see you soon so i can get back into the groove of life and out of this dark hole im in right now. I love you more than i can say in a lifetime if i told you every second it would not be enough ... i know your birthday is coming up soon on the 22nd and i been trying to sell stuff on ebay. but i dont have much stuff to sell. On top of that paypal holds my money for like 21 days because i just started selling things. Anyway i had to write this to you ... im in tears right now i have a hole in my heart and only my son Christopher Maxwell McGhee.... Can ever fill that. No matter what i do to have fun in life its nothing to me. Possetions are nothing to me they are just for us to play with. We do not own a thing in this world .. when we die the only thing that matters are the people you love. and your my number 1 person in the whole world.. Well im going to let you go and i hope you see this one day. Your are always my baby bear.Oh by the way i still have the heart you made me in first grade that says i love my daddy..when you get old enough we have alot to talk about. Maybe by then i will have my back fixed and will be able to work. I guess im just getting old..Keep this between us ... oh if you get on facebook i want you to contact me
Your Daddy
Tim
anyone want to help me get my baby a birthday present. im unemployed right now but use the email above for paypal.. only if you want to though. I hate to even ask and im sure it will not do any good because i tried to help my neice and nephew when their daddy died at the age of 38 and i truly think no one cares most would give to save a dog before they saved a human. Terrible world these days.
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